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Busy! [19 Aug 2007|05:58pm]
[ mood | busy ]

Boo! Busy as hell. Still RA, still in vet. Single again! One step closer to crazy old cat lady, oooh yeah!

But yes, still very much alive. Oh, and purple hair atm.

I love my resident-babies =D

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[12 Jan 2007|08:47pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

*sigh* My baby left me yesterday evening at the vetsies - he looked so sad and was just laying motionless in my arms. I keep looking around corners for him but I know he's not there. Love you Alexander, my baby forever xox

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[03 Jan 2007|09:16pm]
Haha... I'm so fickle. Life is good now. Worked on the farm today, the new farming family are AWESOME... and there's seriously something country in my blood, it's really soothing.

In other news... New Years was good. Annnnd... with no surprises Aakash and I are now going out =) he is nice and snuggly. I won't go into details (nothing beyond being in here... just can't be bothered typing ;D ) but we're gonna take it pretty slow as we're looking for it to last. I wouldn't have thought it, but it's real nice being treated 'proper'... like he opens doors for me and things like that I previously would have expected to annoy me, but he does it in such a way that it's not "I know I should do this... plus it will get me some" but "Hey, I appreciate you and this is something small I can do for you". And his little kisses on my wrists are so delicate they show the same sentiment.

Plus... my baby-kitty is purring and snuggling, and he's off to the vetsies tomorrow (but I can't go - farming) so stuff's looking good. I know he's not going to improve, but no drop is positive now. For squee value... a recent photo!

My baby-kitty
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Why do I only ever seem to update this when upset? [29 Dec 2006|08:46pm]
[ mood | drained ]

Yup... Not a hell of a lot happening yet. Still no farm photos as they are on my computer and I'm on my parents computer, as downstairs while I'm at home I have no internet.

Still really missing my farm. Texting with Norton (the farmers son) every now and again and keeping up to date, but I really miss how the "small stuff" that goes wrong isn't exaggerated to make stress. Here at the moment I'm finding it really hard. And it is just the small stuff.
The microwave beeper didn't go off (my mum had put it on) just a few moments ago - it had stopped at 8.07, rather than counting down the whole 10mins. Big deal, shit happens, no food was burnt... so you just put it on again right, estimate? Wrong - mum implied I'd done it on purpose. W.T.F! Seriously - I have better things to do with my time. Yeah, that got me down a bit.

I find it hard especially because I have to rely on my parents and stuff just doesn't get done. This morning my mum said she was going to a supermarket today. Awesome. We're out of cheese and stuff I needed to make my dinner (homemade pizza), so as usual I just gave her a list of what I needed as I was gonna be out that afternoon. Came home (see below) PAST a supermarket, back to a house without freaking groceries. And I talked to them on the phone just before I left to come home.
How fucking hard is it to get groceries, or if you don't have time (understandable sometimes - if you've been doing something else!!!) just SAY you haven't and I can pick stuff up on the way home. But no. So here I am not-so-happily eating my pizza with its fucked up toppings. Which I really don't feel like eating.

But I have to. Losing weight again. Yay! (Kidding by the way - under 60kg already and eat a tonne to maintain weight). So me not eating can't really happen. But apparently this is normal... this whole eating 2-3 servings every meal, outeating everyone I know, and struggling to maintain weight, while not growing at all is normal. Haha.
Oh well, I insisted on going to the doctor for another problem and she reckons there's an insy chance I might have diabetes. But probably not. But then at least I could be all "hey, well I was pretty sure there was something wrong, maybe next time you should actually listen". As if.

This afternoon went with my sister and her boyfriend to the SPCA for some very early stage puppy hunting for him. Was lovely having a snuggle with the puppies. Then round to Rach's for cat hugging fest! They've grown so big ay. I wish I could have some form of pet next year at the hall - I asked Simon (my boss there) if I could 'inherit' the 2 female rats that were living there this year as my pets for next year. No. Even though they were the RA's pets this year, I can't next year.
So pretty cut up about that. Can't get anything bigger than that and I knew that but the whole no rats/mice thing is new. I can have fish, woopee! Yeah... feeling pretty "kick me when I'm down" at the moment, especially with things to do with the hall.

Other than that... everyone thinks me and Aakash are going out. He's one of my very best mate in Palmy and we've grown particularly close over the last 4-5months, after we both realized Hamish's saying to each of us that the other hated them was all lies. He's staying at the hall next year as a resident though, so by rules there's nothing possible. Strictly we're not. But I don't know. We're so ridiculously close now - he came to my family for Christmas (as he had noone else to spend it with - my reasoning), and as you do, exchanged presents... he had written "Lots of love" on his... and I don't know how I'm meant to take it. Last I heard about his single/not-status was that he had a girlfriend dying of cancer in America, and more recently a rumour that she'd passed. But that was a couple of months ago, and he didn't mention anything.
We're spending so much time together it almost does feel like we're going out. I came down to the hall while I was on the farm. He asked me to drop in on the way home two weeks later. He came down soon after that on my invite to show him Wellington. I'm going up there for new years, and it's just going to be us... we're going to watch a couple of movies, I'm staying in Kirsty's room at the hall, but noone else is there at all. Even my best friend from Palmy is asking, as is his. And I don't know. I love him to absolute bits. But am I in love with him? That is a big difference. I'm most certainly attracted to him, and fairly certain that it's not one way. But I'm not allowed to be. We text about a billion times a day - and he is on vodafone, so his bill is in the hundreds at the moment. Oh yeah - he's apparently going to buy me pink fluffy handcuffs next time I go up. Ugh. Is he 'a' guy, or 'the' guy? I'm lonely, that's for sure. And we get along really well, but there's nothing I can do about this really. Aaaaaaaaargh.

I still have my cat. Thank Gods. I'm going to be such a wreck in one of the entries coming up, and I suspect it won't be far away either. He's the most precious thing to me in the entire world - how am I going to live without him? But he is sick, and I know it won't be long, and even now I thing about it and I just cry.

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Home again [17 Dec 2006|01:22pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I'm home again... but all I wanna do is go back to the farm. I'm really not happy here. I just wanna go home. Other home.

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[13 Nov 2006|09:57pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Currently back at home - but from tomorrow onwards on a farm out past Dannevirk. Yup. No internet. The farmer doesn't even have a mobile. 5am starts. 300+ cows to milk. 30 mins to remnant civilization. Photos oblig. This should be fun XD.

Love and hugs to all, have good start of hols, see you all in a month with some pretty amusing tales I'd be thinking.

Me, a dairy farmer. Hahahahaha.



Oh, and in other news Abdulluh asked me out. Wtf. Seriously. All my guy mates end up wanting to go out with me. But Abdulluh? Argh ><.

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[07 Nov 2006|07:30pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

Today for a change I'm feeling like absolute crap.

Biochemistry test on Thursday afternoon.

Drinking like fuck on Thursday night.

RA meeting Friday.

WooHoo!

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[29 Oct 2006|09:15pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

Nutella on toast again! Just had a cool hall do thing, was good fun, Stefan lent me his camera so I went paparazzi styles =D.

Still screwed over about Abdulluh moving out tho.

But had a good time and didn't think I would. Now should be set for study tomorrow again. Yay!



Oh, and for meeting up in the hols for people it seems I haven't seen in decades (2 months maybe =D) Bean, Qua, etc...
Till Mid Nov: Exams
Mid Nov-Mid Dec: Dairy farming (woohoo! I'm learning to milk cows - at least it will be a laugh!)
Mid Dec-Jan: Time off/Xmas Stuff
Jan-Feb: Beef/sheep farming (again... learn to identify when "Aww-so-cuuuute" becomes "Yumyum")
Feb 7: RA Job begins
Feb 20something: Uni begins

I have some time off!!!!! Exciting!!!!!

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... [29 Oct 2006|12:28am]
[ mood | depressed ]

Abdulluh's moved out of the hall. No goodbye. No reason to anyone. Noone fucking knows anything.

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Woohoo! I'm an elbow! [28 Oct 2006|09:37pm]
[ mood | bored ]







What is Your weird body part fetish?

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[28 Oct 2006|09:18pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I have no friends =( but I look sexy =)

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AaAaAaAaAaAaRgH! [28 Oct 2006|08:38pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Oh I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOO freaking bored. I'm finally feeling good about how I look and all I wanna do is go to town but Dom's at home and I should be studying.


Aaaaaaaaargh.


I wanna flirt, damnit, not stay at home eating nutella on toast (yes again).


Nobodies online even.


Stranded!


Yep... no idea why so many gaps. Bored. Bored bored bored.


Haha, if you can't tell by the sudden increase in posts... it's study leave! 4 days inclusive till first exam! All I wanna freaking do is dance. 12 days till end of exams... then... Shelley's party! YAY! Town maybe. People I don't know. Team exercise (that sounds really bad... but more meaning exercise + social yays!).


Guh.

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Hehe =D [27 Oct 2006|07:10am]
[ mood | flirty ]

Took Monster to the vetsies today. Yay for young hot vets =D. He had like..... bright blue eyes and black hair and really really good eyebrows. And wasn't too shy. And was flirty. But was fifth year and in vet so no. But much yum. Thank Gods for eyebrows.

In other news, I had nutella on toast for dinner and decided if I was a spider, I would live in my computer monitor or behind the fridge. Productive!

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What the hell, seriously [26 Oct 2006|08:41am]
[ mood | naughty ]

I had an unknown resident spider in my hole puncher. Yes, seriously. What the hell was he thinking?! Of all the places, a bright purple cold metal with gnarly fangs (or more accurately, one and a half - it's buggered) stabbing down randomly was the best he could do?!

In other news, study sucks. Just had Stefan over for an hour distracting me, which was great. I still have a soft spot for him, but I think that's mostly cuz everyone else's such a dick to him, plus, he doesn't really deserve his reputation. Well, mostly anyway.

Gods I love being single. And confident. I have that "I can have anyone I want" thought going on right now, and while it's probably not entirely accurate, and not really me to just play with people, it's a great feeling. Nothing like harmless flirting for a confidence boost. Can't wait for Dom to come back so we can go out again =). But just feeling like I look hot is awesome. Yay fake tan, think that's most of it!!

Ever so slightly hyped, and I know I shouldn't be, it's bed time.

Haha... stolen from cmot_dribbler "If I were an enzyme I would be DNA helicase so I could unzip your genes"
Not much into pickup lines, but at least this one requires a slight brain to get =D

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[20 Oct 2006|10:18pm]
[ mood | working ]

Town was poos. Vet function was funny. Funny weird.

Yesterday day was great though. Sunburnt... spent a couple of hours out sunbathing and studying with Stefan. Was lovely actually.

In other news, Dom thinks one of the other guys at the hall likes me. Initially I didn't agree, now I do. Aaaaaargh. Me = single = better for my sanity, health, self-esteem, marks etc. And it's one of my mates =(. Then again... who isn't my mate? =D

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Bah [20 Oct 2006|06:25am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

I have now officially turned down the NZQA job that was available to me over the holidays that I'm too busy for. In other news I spent ~$50 today on clothes and accessories which was fun - Dom and I went shopping again. Sold my textbooks, yay. Got less than I expected, boo. Had left the Vol1 labels on so the store would know I was loyal, yay, but then they only gave me half of the second hand price, rather than new price. Bah!

In other news, I'm a moggie, what a surprise:




And, in a career quiz, vet comes up! Yay (bolded = considered it):

You would be very happy in a career that utilised your level-headedness, and allowed you to work mainly on your own. You want a career that allows you to be creative, without having to be involved with lots of people. Some careers that would be perfect for you are:
Artist, Historian, Banker, Novelist, University Professor, Photographer, Vet, Paralegal, Graphic Designer, Online Content Developer, Webmaster, Producer, Managing Director, Nutritionist, Advertising, Nursing


Not a bad quiz really. Going out soon, yay. Hope there's some good dancers and eye candy =)
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[19 Oct 2006|08:26am]
[ mood | energetic ]

Jeez I'm a busy girlie. Everything's happening in my life and it's awesome. I love being busy.

Tomorrow is the last lecture for the year. Far it's gone fast this semester. Had a histology test today, anatomy on Tuesday, 2 assignments due tomorrow that are already handed in. And that's just the lead up!

Tomorow after the lecture I'm going swimming with Stefan and maybe Dom. Then going to sell some textbooks at Vol1 bookstore (yay, $150 for next years books!), then study study! Town again tomorrow, should be good. Vet function before, then in with Dom and Stephen and whoever else from the flat, and we're meeting Abdulluh there =D. It should be great. I just hope Abdulluh doesn't think I am only going to dance with him, we're only gonna meet up, but sometimes that happens and I hate it hate it hate it. Why should I go out and only dance with one person? Bah. I don't think he will though. I love him to bits =D itty litty Abdulluh bits!

Haha, when Dom and I were shopping last weekend at the mall near here, we saw one of the guys I had danced with that Thursday. Danced... haha. Anyway, after we had passed we started talking about how recognisable we are versus guys after being in town. We decided that we weren't particularly as guys town = jeans + shirt = guys mall, and girls town = makeup, dresses, heels... girls mall = jeans + shirt. So figured we were fine, he might have an inkling but not for sure.
Then Dom kindly pointed out my green hair to me =D. I will post pictures at some point... it is rather... distinctive! Heh... everyone always thinks we're drunk until they talk to us anyway, due to our out-there-just-dance-damnit attitude that most people acquire when drunk. We're probably the most sober people there!

Hockey regionals this weekend, should be awesome. Just want at least one goal. Will be good to be there anyway, only 3rd year playing so that's cool.

Then home, see my baby cat, hate being away for so long... he ain't doing so good at the moment. I know I'm gonna lost him soon, but I just can't comprehend what that's going to be like. I'm going to be so freaking alone, and still surrounded by people. I know most people don't like it, but if I had to chose between my cat and a human I'd definitely chose my cat. No arguments (bar I don't like this food!), no ultimatums, no demands other than love... I seriously have no idea.
That little ball of fluff is the centre of my universe. What do you do when the centre of your universe goes missing? Reminds me of one of my fav quotes :

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling into at night. I miss you like hell.
Edna St. Vincent Millay (1892 - 1950), Letters


But he's still here, and I'll thank anything and everything that gives my each day with him.

RA stuff going good, just decided whose coming back to the hall and everything. Hamish (ex now again) is coming back (amongst others), and I'm not comfortable about that but nothing I can really do. Just want to rid myself of any distinct biases or situations where I feel that acting as an RA I'd be ignored and treated as nutty normal me. Presents itself as another challenge, and I love challenges, but this one does make it harder to come back next year. I don't want the new residents feel in the middle of it all, and I'm pretty sure they will.

Heart going out to all my mates having a shit time at the moment, I know a lot of you guys are. Thinking of you and keeping my spirit with you as much as I can to help you however I can. Hope things get better guys =/
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[07 Oct 2006|09:15pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I am so nuked. Did the triathlon today (250m swim, 5km bike, 2km run) and it went a lot better than I expected it to. 3rd from 5, and while I don't think a road bike (was on a mountain bike on the road) would have got me a higher place, it would have made things easier!

Just found out I have interregional inline hockey trials tomorrow, so fingers crossed. I don't even have my gear up here, so I rang my parents to ask if they'd go to Grans (halfway from home to her) tomorrow anyway, then they decided to come up and watch. Yay! Quite nervous seeing as I haven't skated in about a month and I'm reasonably wasted from today, and the week.

Went out on Thursday with Dominique, really enjoyed it. Nice just to go out as girls, and not with drunk people. Danced around 5 hours with one 10 or so minute break. Was awesome. Lots of really good guys as well, not just sleazy ones, yay, can never have enough mates.

Cut short oO;

Yay, I can make yoghurt!

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[24 Sep 2006|09:24am]
[ mood | tired ]

Skull cup was awesome though both sports I played in we came last! We (firsties) won the volleyball though, so token yay. Ever so slightly sunburnt. It was better than I expected it to be, tonnes of laughs and nice to get a decent bout of exercise. It got progressively louder as the day went on due to the fact that they weren't kidding when they said the after party began at 8am... some very very drunk (and highly amusing) people. Soccer quickly turned from 11-a-side to however-many-in-your-year-are-here-a-side, and got up to around 15-a-side.

Went to watch one of Hamish's Ultimate nationals games also, and got introduced to his parents. It looks like a lot of fun to play, but not such a great sport to watch, but maybe that's because I haven't played?

The actual skull cup after party was pretty gruesome. Best players of the sports got the reward (!!!) of beer with chopped up raw lamb tongue in it. This one crazy guy got given a cow tongue and he just bit a big chunk off the end of it. So gross, I can't believe people actually went through with it.

After losing Eve I went round to Stephens (Dom (one of my mates) is/was his kind of girlfriend) for his actual girlfriends welcome party and to support Dom. Stayed around there for a couple of hours and had a couple of drinks, nobody went overboard with the alcohol which was awesome, made it a lot more enjoyable. Went into town and had a good laugh and dance with Dom. Getting more and more into club dancing, I think it's just nice to have some exercise and time off really. Had a good long dance with Neelin from vet which is probably going to start a billion rumours, seeing as he was quite drunk and it showed. He's a great mate though, and I know I can trust him, so it was nice to not just dance with Dom and her mates!

Anyway, today is pretty much study. Quite tired though cuz I got to bed at 3.30am, and got up at my usual time of 7am, so I don't know how much I'll get done.

Jeez... I have a real vegetable craving at the moment, and a butter one, and I think I know which one will win out =D

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[22 Sep 2006|09:14pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I'm not feeling so good today but I guess that's the way it goes. Can't be fantastic every day.

Got my physiology test back finally, 85%, yay!

Just doing a bit more study before bed. Skull cup tomorrow, should be fun.

Can't wait to go home next weekend. Just talking to my Mum online which is nice. I wish there was some way of not leaving her home with my drunk Dad but again, I guess that's just the way it goes. That must really suck though.

Anyway, bed time I guess.

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